Fallen Again

I went against my plan. I convinced myself to chance. As usual though, it blew up in my face. I don't know why I tried in the first place. I took the risk, but this love was brisk. You can't deny the obvious decline. I call your bluff, because I'm clearly not good enough.. Or maybe I was just too much.

I wonder though, what have I done wrong? One minute we were fine, the next there's a problem. You said I was important, that I was a priority, but the things you say are different from what I see. The problem with broken people is they're used to being alone. It doesn't matter what you say, just the things that are shown.

All I wanted was a little of your time. What you failed to realize is everything is a sign. I wish you knew how much you hurt me, to tell me I'm a priority only to patronize me with your empty maybe. Had you just told me no, I would have no expectation; you would have saved me painful anticipation.

I don't know why the universe is punishing me. Without you though, my world now feels so empty. You were irresistible and got me all emotional. Now I'm feeling dumb that I fell for another one; just staring out my window waiting for you to come... but you won't. I know this to be true. Still, I stare out my window, waiting for you.